January 27, 2012

I hate making up titles. I really, really do.

Yesterday was one of those days.  My husband was out of town Monday until late last night, and yesterday afternoon I was at the end of my rope.

I was not patient. I was mean.  And as I was screaming at my children I had a brief out of body experience.  I realized what I was doing and a little voice said, "Seriously? You're really yelling at them for that?"

I hate those days.  I hate that out of control feeling, the unreasonable rage that just overwhelms me.  And over the stupidest things.  Why? Why do I do that, when I know better?  It seems like I should be old enough now to and have enough kids to keep it together.

Tell me I'm not alone.  That I'm not the worst mother in the world for yelling about stupid things? Please?



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14 comments:

Tracie said...

I hear you! I too have found myself yelling at my kids and thinking why am I yelling about this? It is not that big of a deal. But I just can't seem to stop the yelling. I finally saw a doctor and was told it was hormmonal probably Post Partum. He put me on some medication and I don't find myself doint it anymore (almost like once in the last 6 months where it had been several times a day)

cb photos said...

Um, I'm a yeller. I've always been a loud talker and a little bit emotional, so yeah, I tend to get loud very often. I have to seriously make an effort not to freak out and yell, all day long. Don't feel bad, I'm sure I am much MUCH worse than you. :)

Melinda said...

Oh sorry, that was me up there!

Melissa Bastow said...

I yell at my kids. Mostly it's to be heard over the commotion or because I'm yelling down the stairs or something. (<-- those are actually just my justified excuses for yelling at my kids A LOT, because I thought for a second it would be kind of fun to pretend that I was a good parent.)

Pam said...

Nope definitely not alone. I could have written this post myself :)

just call me jo said...

I think anyone who claims they haven't had days (many days) like that is just a big, fat liar!! I yell as a grandma. I'm sure that's a definite no,no! Grandma's are really supposed to be more calm. (Not this one some days...) Kids are resilient. They really are. (If not, you can pay big money for their therapy later...)

Jenny P. said...

You're not alone. And you're not a bad mom.

I'm really, truly grateful for that little voice that reminds me to at least try and reign it in. (I think that voice is a huge indication of the kind of mother that you are. You're aware, you're sensitive, you want to do right by your kids. That says a lot.) I also use that voice as an indication that I probably owe my kids an apology. Because the voice only shows up when I'm being completely unreasonable. And so as soon as I have my head on straight again, I tell my kids as much. It always feels good to admit it.

It's been a week for me too. A stomach bug has made the rounds through four of the five children, and hit the husband as well. So far, only the youngest and I are unscathed... (dare I even say that outloud?!) I've dealt with enough barf this week to last me a lifetime.

Liesl Shurtliff said...

You are just fine! We've all been there. Any mom who hasn't is just not human. Angels, I guess. I'm human.

heather said...

You just need a break. I've been there too.

Mother Goose said...

I had one of those days on Wednesday. The only thing that helped was a chocolate candy bar I snuck in the shopping cart! You are a great mom and I don't know if I've ever told you, but I learned lots about being a mom from you that summer in Cali. Thanks!

Barbaloot said...

Well, I never yell at my non-existent kids so I can't say... :) But I do find myself getting overwhelmingly impatient over small things sometimes so I'm sure you're not alone.

Serene is my name, not my life! said...

Ha! You know how many times I've gone to bed with a sore throat because I had been yelling so much at my kids? That always seems to happen when my husband is out of town.

Totally normal.

Rochelle Brunson said...

I do that all the time, and my husband isn't even out of town. It was actually one of my new years resolutions to be nicer. I'm so mean to my kids sometimes!

SpencernAmy said...

Those are tough days. I've locked myself in my room in a "mommy timeout" several times. The most painful part is when I overhear them yelling at each other using the phrases they learned from me.... I have had to go back and apologize to my kids more times than I can count. At least I am a decent example of how to repent...and the yelling is way less frequent now that they are older.

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